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Monday, September 28, 2015

On Worship

Worship. It's that attitude where we connect with God. Usually we enter this mentality through singing. Or simply through music.

This is not a group activity. Yes, fellowship with believers in a spirit of worship is necessary and vital to our spiritual growth, but that doesn't make worship purely a group activity.

Worship is between you and God.

When I worship, when I truly worship, I go into another world. I'm in a bubble; a town population 2: God and I. If I let myself step into this attitude of worship, I can't help but dance. I have to move. I have to worship Him with all of me. I don't care what other people think of me. I have to use my whole body to praise my Creator.

And if you have a problem with that, then your focus has shifted from the One who truly matters. When you go into the true spirit of worship, you may be overcome with a feeling of needing to be still. Maybe you have to kneel. Maybe you have to simply sit and soak Him in.

But if we are watching others worship and thinking of their reactions as distracting, then our head isn't right. Our spirit isn't well. The spirit of distraction has a very different feeling.

Let God rip through each individual's spirit of worship how He is going to. Don't be like Michal, David's wife, and order an individual so deep in the presence of God to stop reacting so physically to the glory and power of God.

Worship is a holy, holy mindset. We shouldn't mess with that. We have no right to claim control over the moving of the Almighty God. Sure, some people may have a messy way of worship, dancing in the aisle or wailing loudly over the singers, but that doesn't mean they're attention seekers. They have been overcome by the beautiful, frightening presence of God and they have to give Him all of them.

I want to worship God with all of me, no matter what other people may think. Because He is perfect.

Saturday, September 12, 2015

Summit Prayer

Dear God,

I want you to wreck me as I pour into Summit. This is your work that you're allowing me to be a part of and I am truly blessed by it. I don't want to take this for granted.

When I play, I don't want to congregation to walk out of your presence talking about me. I don't want comments like, "That violin though" to be the focus of their thoughts. I want them to talk about the amazing things you did in that auditorium and how you revealed your truths and love to them.

I want every student in that room to be so focused on You that all they see and hear is You. I want to be both musically and spiritually prepared for every single note you have called me to play.

I long to meet you in every phrase, in every melody, in every harmony, and in every rest. I long for the worship team to be so unified in your grace and will that nothing else matters but you.

I want to walk out of each Summit service a different woman. I want to grow closer to you, to grow in wisdom and knowledge. Just because I'm a part of the worship team doesn't mean I have it all together. I still need you. I want you to be all I need, but most of all I need you to be all I want.

Your will be done.

Your daughter,

Angelica Rose

Friday, September 4, 2015

I am a radical

I'm a woman who believes women should stop trying to do everything men do. I'm an American that isn't a strong supporter for complete equal rights. I'm a Christian who will still shop at Target and go to Starbucks for the pumpkin spice latte (but not that often because I'm a poor college student).

I guess you can say I'm a radical.

Because I believe in God. I have put my hope and life in someone bigger than anything on this earth. I'm choosing my battles. And He's the only one who can fight them.

So go ahead, call me a radical. Call me crazy. Call me old-fashioned. I'm cool with that.

If my enemy is hungry, I'll feed him. I'll give him a snack. You could say that means I'm helping him put food on his table. Just because someone holds a different view than me or cuts me down because of my own doesn't mean they are any less of a person. They are just as valuable.

Besides, who am I to determine someone's worth? Who gave any human the right to determine the worth of someone's life based on their views and their faith and their lifestyle? That is not my job.

That is not my place.

I am a hypocrite who doesn't always practice what I preach. I am selfish and I don't always want to put other's before myself. I am human and I make mistakes.

But I am loved by God. And so are you.

Don't like that? You don't have to take it. But He loves you just as He loves me. And He died for us. Soooo...

He's a radical too.

So that's where I get it. :)

Tuesday, September 1, 2015

Christians are turning into Americans

Guys, we've been doing this wrong.

The church...Christians...have started to blend in with Americans. Maybe not outwardly as much, but inwardly.

We treat Jesus like a waiter. We call him over, give him our order list of wants, stipulations, and the occasional "Your Will be done" stuff, when really we have in our mind exactly how we want it...forget that "chef's specialty" crap. And then we send Him on His way to deliver the requests to God.

And we wait.

He doesn't always bring results when we want or expect or think is time appropriate. Sometimes the result is "wrong" and we sulk about it for a while.

And we feel it's okay to get frustrated and leave His house without leaving a tip; without our sacrifice.

Guys, since when did Christians act like impatient, selfish Americans? It burdens me to know I've treated Christ, the Holiest, in the same way that ignites such a furious passion in me when restaurant servers are cut down. I don't want to treat God in a way that puts Him on the same level as a slave. Christ came to be a servant, sure...but that doesn't mean I have the right to treat Him like dirt when He doesn't answer my prayers the way I want Him to.

God puts up with so much because He loves us. I want to treat Him with the love and respect He deserves. I need to.